Just because
44 straight hours without sleep
Posted by Lams on 6:55 PM
I feel disgusted and sick. I feel tired and cranky. I feel disappointed and like I'm a disappointment myself. I feel like burning my insides. I feel like the world should end any moment just because I'm so fucking fed up of everything. Goddammit. I feel. I dont know what that was all about. Im just sick and tired and exhausted and my body needs sleep, but NO my mind doesnt seem to agree-.-
For the past two nights I've had incredible trouble trying to put my mind at ease and fall asleep. It just doesnt seem to happen. For the 30 minutes of sleep that I did manage to get last night, I had the worst nightmare ever and apparently I started crying in my sleep and then my mom came in to check in and that's when I woke up and I wasnt able to sleep since.
I dont even remember the details of the nightmare, except for the fact that there was a fire and someone had died and there were tons of injured people everywhere. The dream was all blurry and confusing but I remember running, trying to look for someone. I dont know... thats messed up shit right there but it was still bad enough to make me cry in my sleep and that rarely ever happens(although I get horrible nightmares all the time)...
Maybe I should try sleeping pills tonight.