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Reflection of life 2006-Now.

Posted by Lams on 5:33 PM

Right, so today, I felt like reflecting on the past few years of my life(lets start from the beginning of high school).
I guess I could say during this time, my life has a been an emotional roller coaster: 


1]moving from one country to another-after 3 years of finally getting adjusted in Ktm, Nepal, I MOVE TO SWEDEN. Its not like I dont like it here(infact I love it) but because I've moved so much in my life that was when I was hoping for some stability and RIGHT THEN we moved. So it kinda threw things off track for me. Of course, the leaving my friends part was the hardest, even after 16 years of experience, I still cant manage to make myself okay with the fact that I wont be seeing the people I've been seeing every single day for the past few years anymore.


2]my stupidity when it comes to 'love'- This is one of those topics where a "NO COMMENT" is probably the smartest thing to write. Although, I could add that because of all the fucked up things happening in my love life during the first three years of high school, I grew with more knowledge, sophistication, wisdom, and basically I grew over all(emotionally/mentally). Im also proud to say, that MOST of the people involved are still in my life, and still great friends if not greater. 


3]my best friend Margaret moving away to the States after 9th grade - I was incredibly lost after Maggie left. It was sort of like I didnt know who I belonged with anymore. I mean she was the one who was always there: through the shit, the randomness, the stupid jokes, the funny classic moments, the evil ideas; EVERYTHING. She was also there when I was lonely. The one thing I LOVE about her, is that whenever I used to be upset over guy troubles, she wouldnt be like a normal friend saying " aww honey, im so sorry, but dont be sad you deserve way better" ( in that pity voice that they usually use ), she would be saying " So? get over it. Its not the end of life. Get off your ass and do something about it. GAWSH!" lol and of course the occasional "YOU! BUTT!" or " Go stand in a corner!" xD *I shall never forget that day: final exam,break up, and my best friend bullying me around to get my mind off the break up shit.LOL typical YOU, Magz(: oh and of course Movie Night epicness* I MISS YOU.


4]high school drama bullshit (all throughout )- Friends no longer friends, Bitches, Backstabbers, Gossip Girls, Gossip 50 year old Aunty xD LMAO, a shitass teacher that I hate with all my might, "OMG, I think Lamiya loves me" says a general boy & " Just because I am nice to you DOESNT MEAN I FUCKING LOVE YOU >.<" says me. :D, jealousies -.-'', obsessed&crazy&manipulative boys( people that were there should know who I'm talking about), attention seeking whores, users&fakers, self-pitiers and the ones that try to act innocent to get pity when they are really devilish bitches who deserve to fucking crawl up in a hole and disappear*BERT moment* xD. yea lets leave the list there :)


5]studies pressure (IGSCES.yuck) - CAMBRIDGE EXAMINATIONS=NO LIFE > that says it all.. Oh yes and now I have chosen to do the IB course :/ kill me. 


6]a sudden realization of who my real friends are - 

    && more <3 and if I have left out your name, Im sorry, it wasnt on purpose :) and You are still loved by me :]